Soon to Fly
She lies like a helpless bird
eyes closed, tiny now and frail.
Immaculate as ever
in her pristine nightie and pearl earrings.
My voice pulls her back from her dreams.
Taking her hand, she smiles
confused and hardly audible .
She knows it’s me.
Ignoring protocol i join her on her bed.
Cradled in my arms as Jim Reeves sings
“I love you because you understand me”
My father’s favourite, the dam breaks.
Locked in that moment
Stroking her hair she suddenly tells me
I must eat. A mother to the last.
I am not hungry.
Then , “Its getting dark Al,
you better go home to be safe.”
She cannot see the sunlight streaming in
nor the abundant flowering cherry at the window,
whispering of endless spring times
Nor the River Nairn flowing on in the distance
that speaks of the river of life and death
and our blessed part in it all.
Inwardly I pray
” Angels gather round her now.
Let her see your glory before she leaves
Then…bear her up gently in your tender arms
Cossetted by love both here and there”
She’s getting ready to fly.
This is a really beautiful poem, Alison. I hope your bereavement is getting easier and I understand you’ve needed space and solitude in recent months. I’m sure you realise that what we call “Death” is actually nothing at all, nothing bad, is only a process of returning home. I have no doubt that you will ultimately be reunited with your mother. Are there any good spiritualist churches up your way? I’ve been to a few down in the south of England, and they always offer me solace. Spiritualism has been in my family for a while. We affectionately call it… Read more »
Yah! Archie me lad. Good to hear from you again. I have been sort of taken aback at just how deeply I am grieving for my mother. There are still unguarded moments when I go to phone her or look forward to telling her something. I know she’s ok just on another wavelength but I do miss her physical presence. Thanks for your kind words about my poem and my absence. I do need to get back even if just reading and commenting…everything seemed very flat for a good while and I lost all enthusiasm for everything including my healing… Read more »