A Late Enlightenment

changed my understanding of  bitter-sweet memories.
A Non-Fiction write. Pic: my own

As life becomes gradually immersed
in the benign ambience of Autumn
distant carnality will, even then
ambush the mind, plague long-
suffering senses!

By exiting through eroticism
lustful adolescent betrayals
leave no accountable trace
supremely self-enhancing
they serve no other useful
function
As encapsulated exaltations
they metamorphose instead
into prototypes of excellence
establishing prerequisites for
commitment, rarely attainable
in reality
The exalted self-enhancement
remains inventive and visionary
creating mostly time-wasting
daydreamed dramas too fabulous
too larger-than-life to ever achieve
realisation

For victims unwittingly violated
in premature romantic episodes
by real people able to be truly loved
‘the fixation of a superlative ideal‘
are keywords
 
 
  
Goth:2021

(Written after watching the American drama series ‘A Teacher’,
currently on the BBC iPlayer)