Peas on a Plate

I sat there oh so desperate, pushing peas around my plate

While she destroyed and deconstructed me with endless words of hate

And I realize now that was just the start, of what became my broken heart

That has stayed throughout my life and shapes what’s left of me

For once I made her heart beat faster, but that love turned into disaster

Did she find the grass as green as what she thought?

Now each day I sit here and tremble, as I no longer resemble

The man she met and fell in love with that fine day

She set fire to all my dreams, until nothing was as it seemed

And her mouth spewed out her hatred and emotions

She seemed oblivious to my tears, that fell from eyes that through the years

Only ever idolized and saw the very best in her

People told me she was bad, but I still gave her all I had

And now I pay the price and grieve for that lost love

You see some days I cannot raise my head, from the pillow on my bed

The very one she said she’d love to press down on my face

And I just don’t understand and sometimes wonder, was it all planned?

For if it was, then that’s a long, long fall from grace

So each day I soldier on, count the days down ‘til I’m gone

And no longer have to spend my time like this

All my colleagues think I’m fun, but that’s because I let no-one

See the broken man who lives inside this shell

If not for children I’d be gone, just some dust to gaze upon

Because what was once my heaven is now my hell

And as i sit here feeling desperate, pushing pills around this plate

They remind of the peas I had to eat in our old place

And I would take all of the name calling and worse she sent my way

If I could once more, kiss her perfect face