Seasons
The pain of the inevitabilty for some.
Seasons-l
I want to shield you with my arms,
shelter you from fate.
Rage against time
and invert the hour-glass
to take us back
to the old days
of my trying youth.
Measuring me for dresses,
then those late nights
waiting up after dances.
till you heard my key in the lock.
Those poetry evenings by the fire…
Or me trying to keep up
with your fast gait .
I refuse to surrender you to amnesia
confusion and unsteady walk.
Fading sight and vulnerability,
dark uncertainty,
lonely, bleak nights
and fear.
I never could understand your tears,
when I fell and needed stitches
as a young girl.
It was my knee,
not yours.
But now I know.
God!
how I know.
© stormwolf 2023
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Lovely sentiment, Alison. Of course you don’t have to remember your Mum as the fragile lady she is now. As you well know, we are all ageless and timeless and will ultimately all be reunited in another place. The older I get, the less scared I am of death. I have no doubt that something better is waiting for us afterwards.
David Icke’s views on consciousness are a real inspiration to me. I have come to very similar realisations independently of him, thanks to various wonderful chemicals…
Archie x
Thank you for your kind words, Archie. They are very much appreciated.She tells me every night she is going blind as though it’s a new revelation for me. I totally agree with you about the eternal nature of the soul. It does give me some comfort but the slow agony of this pitliess condition, coupled with my own helplessness to improve her lot, means that i struggle many times to be strong enough to endure. Those we love we long to protect. Some days (like today) I am simply overwhelmed at the cruelty of life. Maybe I could be doing… Read more »
I too have spent countless hours, with someone who remember none of them the next time we met. My mother in law was special to me, to see her disintegrate before my eyes was more than I could bear.
Beautiful writing Alison.
Mike XxX
Thanks Mike. So many in the same boat now it seems.
So good to know how special she was to you. Not everyone gets on with the mother in law 😉
Alison xx
Alison this so beautiful, so loving, so quietly desperate. I guess I have been very lucky neither my mum or my dad deteriorated in this way, in fact I don’t think any family members have suffered from mental confusion. I’m hoping I can stay as alert as them. I can only imagine how dreadfully difficult it must be for you, it must tear at the soul. Sue xx
Thank you Sue. I have written several poems about her, It’s cathartic to me. If I only had not moved so far away it woud be easier all round. It was her wish I made a new lfe somewhere else but moving back may be an option although due to my own health issues I could not be her carer.
I go home as often as possible and do what I can.
Alison x
Another lovely poem about your mum Alison. Lost my mum to suicide when I was a teenager, and I would have given anything to have had a her through my life. But you still have yours, and painful though it may be for you right now, you are lucky to have had those years, and I am sure she cherishes those years too, even if she is unable to relate it to you. My very best wishes to both of you.
Val xx
Oh Val!
What a terrible thing to have happened and at such a crucial time in your life too ;-(
Yes, I have been blessed by having her all these years and the last few years have been precious as I was always a bit of a challenge bringing up, asI was a tomboy unlike my sister so had no interest in girlie things. The last few years have allowed us to grow so much closer.
Thanks for your good wishes and I am very moved by your sharing.
Alison xx
Such aching sadness in your words, Alison. The ending does indeed capture the essence of a mother’s love and concern. A beautiful poem.
Hi Tony,
For you to call it a beautiful poem means more to me than anything. My heart was in it and I cannot say more than that. Thanks for reading.
Alison x